Everyone knew what was the best for you
What had your eyes blinded they could all see through
So you take a step to change and don’t know what to do
Now everything is shattered and you don’t have a clue
As everything around you seems to crumble and fall
You realize you’re left alone to deal with it all
They say to spend time with your family and friends
But depression will blur those lines’ beginning and ends
They say that no one deserves to suffer alone
Yet not a single fucking person seems to own a phone
You don’t want to be that friend who bitches and moans
Was anything rebuilt on blind hope alone?
In fact, hope’s the thing that lead you into this place
Hope to see past what was done to your face
Hope that if you loved enough you could erase
Hope that all they needed was some love and grace
All you want is a friend; all they see is a weight
Endless days and days you start to ruminate
And over time you start feel that they can’t relate
Demons screaming so loud you can’t concentrate
“Boy, cry, and I’ll give you what to cry about”
So you learn to stuff it down and lie it out
But inside they can’t hear so you scream and shout
Stuff your face in the pillow to muffle your mouth
You fall back to what you know will numb the pain
As you feel their fingers pointing at you in blame
Hell you know three are yours but it’s all the same
And all it does is amplify the guilt and shame
Asking for help just leaves you stigmatized
“Just tough it all out” is how it looks in their eyes
“At least it isn’t as bad as the other guys'”
And why the fuck do you think we learn to disguise?
“I made it through, I know where you’ve been.”
Then tell me how the fuck do you start to mend
When reality around you starts to warp and bend
Days, weeks, and months all start to blend
Forget all about how they say you should feel
Unless you acknowledge it then you’ll never heal
No matter who says that it’s not a big deal
It doesn’t make the pain of loss any less real